{Soulpreneur Sunday} Complacency or Discomfort?

I’ve been upleveling in my business. AND I’ve still been really comfortable.

I had gotten used to baby steps as a way to counteract my old way of creating, which consisted of blowing up everything overnight as a way to prove how much I could rapidly create. It was exhausting and was anything but ease and magic.

I had gotten addicted to the adrenaline rush it gave me to create that way.

The past 18 months was necessary. I took the time to listen to ME, to fully align with me, my truth and my desires rather than what I was “supposed” to do. I finally chose me in my business instead of what I “should” do.

During my adventure in Rome (I arrived here on October 1), I realized I was so afraid of having my business take over my life again that I was playing it really safe.

Previous to this phase of claiming ease and magic in my life and business, I had made some business decisions where I didn’t trust my intuition fully. I made some very expensive decisions, which I share with you in the video below.

It wasn’t until I was wandering around Rome two days ago, trying to find my way to a training I was attending, that I realized I have been playing it really safe in my life.

I arrived in Rome excited for my adventure. It was the morning of the training and I left my apartment near the Colosseum with plenty of time to get to my training about a mile away.

And I got lost. I walked about a mile longer than I needed to and was late to my training.

GPS wasn’t working on my phone, the printed map I had was useless. I was totally turned around. I felt like an idiot because I don’t speak the language and didn’t know how to ask for directions. I made a lot of assumptions that I would be a nuisance to someone if I asked for help.

I was now officially late for my training. A training that I paid $2,500 to attend, flew half-way across the globe to attend, and I was late.

I realized that I don’t like not knowing where I’m going. I don’t like not having a plan. I don’t like feeling lost. I don’t like not being in total control of what was happening in my world.

It had been a while since I’ve been that uncomfortable. On one hand, I was frustrated.

On the other hand, something really great was happening: I could feel the dormant desires within me. The dreams I had ignored and pretended that weren’t important to me.

The discomfort came from this epic trip to Italy where I was embarking on a personal development journey that would rewire everything I thought possible.

I have constructed much of my life being in control – or attempting to do this. The control freak in me was losing big time.

So I surrendered.

As thoughts popped up of wandering around the city for hours, I stopped. I took a breath. I did what I know to do when I desire to create a different experience.

The only difference between me working myself into a frustrated panic or having a really cool adventure was a CHOICE. What was I going to choose?

I chose adventure.

I cleared the blocked energy.
I cleared the judgment of myself for getting lost.
I asked some questions.
(Conclusions contract the energy, questions expand possibilities.)

What energy, space, and consciousness can I be to follow my knowing, trust my path and be exactly where I need to be in the present moment?

What else is possible? (I asked that about a thousand times.)

Wherever I’m creating resistance to BE my full magic and create the reality I truly desire, I destroy and uncreate it. POD POC (Access clearing statement – www.theclearingstatement.com)

What would it take to find the hotel for the training with total ease?
What would it take to enjoy the journey and trust I’m exactly where I need to be? What would it take to ENJOY everything about my experience?

In a matter of ten minutes, I found my way, I got to the training and during this process, I realize that getting this uncomfortable was perfect for me.

I felt alive. I felt invigorated. I was confronted with an illusion of control and it was holding me back from creating something more.

I became aware of where I was playing it safe…where I was denying what I truly desired because of fear that I would desire something big and it wouldn’t happen.

Or it would happen but at the expense of my health, marriage, family and joy like it had in the past.

When is the last time you got really uncomfortable?

The good kind of discomfort that lets you know you are on the right path, that you are alive and your desires are on target? The kind of discomfort that wakes you up to what’s really possible and you are in the exact perfect place to create and receive it?

Maybe it’s time to get lost in your Rome?

Believing in You,

Angella

Here are some photos of my trip so far: